Words in Chains
I prepare for sleep, replaying the images of the day in my mind. A reflection is born within me. We humans, no matter how far we have drifted from animals in our evolution, no matter how refined our thinking has become, are still ruled by instinct — or perhaps better said, by the subconscious part […]
Like the Moon
I lie on my bed and look at a face that begins to mean more than anything else in this life to me. My chest is filled with a feeling so strong it could shine. The emptiness from before is already forgotten. It rises somewhere I have never been. It is like the moon – […]
For an ordinary life… and for love
Shortly before the morning shift. I sip my coffee, and in my ears the chimes of messages ring — from the one I want to give the rest of my life to. Smiles, hearts, ordinary words, and a video… a video in which I, maybe not entirely on purpose, caught a glimpse of life in […]
Conquering the Heart
I’m listening to an old song, and its lyrics, together with the reality of my life in recent days, make me reflect. Today’s thought is a happy one—perhaps with a trace of sarcasm. We humans have always been great warriors. Tirelessly fighting to reach our goals. Long ago, we gave our lives without hesitation for […]
The energy inside
I stand, waiting for the evening meal to be served. A new kitchen, new colleagues, a new atmosphere. Another change? No. I’m just here to help. Watching, and – like anyone – quietly weighing the day from a distance. Hmm… she loves cats. Still singing at her age? Once a disco queen? And her husband… […]
Back Where I Belong
I’m sitting at a table in a pizzeria in Konstanz. A day off, shopping, relaxation. I’m waiting for my meal, the place is pleasant, the sun is shining, and music is playing that stirs the feeling of beauty in ordinary life. Why do I so often fail to notice this beauty? I also work in […]
In the Mirror of Fate
I’m sitting on a couch that isn’t mine. In front of me, a mirror—and in it, a person I don’t yet truly know. My gaze is broken by movement—a figure dressed entirely in black, her steps accompanied by the sway of a braid. My eyes drift to the ceiling, words flow about a topic that […]
Real Value
I’ve just opened my eyes. On my phone—a message continuing yesterday’s conversation, and within it a sentence that made me stop and think. Does no one really think of me? Am I just insignificant to them? No. I simply seek attention where I choose to give mine. I want her attention—no one else’s. But what’s […]
The Privileged World
A hollow statue… The only thing left is desire and a mind still capable of thought. No will to start anything… and yet, all the potential surrounding me. A life without meaning… and the endless search for it. An inborn idea of purpose — shaped like the urge to care and to love. Skin armored […]
Hollow Walls of Today’s World
I lie in bed, ready to sleep, tired, and my thoughts slowly turn into images. I’m thinking about the last rejection, about the one who caused one of the biggest shifts in my thinking. She doesn’t even realize what a single unguarded gesture can do, what kind of chaos it can unleash. She forgot it […]
Happiness and Pretence
New job, new people, new experiences. That’s often how my thoughts begin. Yes, I’m in a season of searching—looking for a place to stay. And here too, there was one I considered suitable. First encounter: a seemingly firm boss. Ego above all. Yelling, undermining colleagues, throwing pans at those who carry his name—literally like dogs. […]
Closing the Sixth Chest
It’s been about a year since I came across these words on Instagram: “You can’t defeat a man who doesn’t care about pain, failure, rejection, loss, disrespect or heartbreak. He is here to win.” I liked them. I had them engraved as my motto. A motto – yes, even though I never fully identified with […]
Only a Thought, Yet Everything
The bottle of wine has fulfilled its purpose. Slowly, yet precisely, it’s completing its role. Latin music in my ears. On the bed beside me—where I wish to see the one I’d confess my love to for a lifetime—there are once again things packed in vacuum bags. A brilliant tip from my mom—the best woman […]
Behind the Light of Buildings
Morning. I’m still half asleep. Holding a cup of coffee, I scroll aimlessly, thumb tapping out of habit. Facebook. Nothing special. Ads, empty phrases, familiar faces blurring into one another. And then I see her. Standing alone — in another world. Behind her, buildings lit by the evening sun. Everything looks a bit foreign, a […]
A Moment Stilled
In today’s world of endless marketing campaigns, failed relationships, and unfulfilled longing for those who once stirred something in us — while we are in turn repeatedly rejected by the ones we quietly moved — it’s incredibly hard to find what’s real. Something that brings value to our life. And here I am, once again, […]
Maybe I’d Choose It Again
I’m sitting in a new apartment, drinking my morning coffee. The world — or rather, life — has shifted once again. A scene from the telenovela I watched last night still echoes in my mind. What if the morning sun filtered through the shadows of palm leaves on my hacienda? I’d be served breakfast by […]
Footprints That Time Will Never Wash Away
It’s a late autumn evening, the sunlight has almost vanished from the world, and I’m lying in bed, searching for an old photo. Along the way, I scroll through others—ones from the time when I felt most loved by my former partner. It was beautiful. We were there for each other, offering a kind of […]
The Path to Understanding Human Fragility
I’m sitting at the bar in the usual hotel, drinking my morning coffee. As always, I’m watching the same old circus. The hotel manager, driven by his own inner unrest and obsession with perfection, crushes his staff with hateful words. Why is he never satisfied? Is everything truly so wrong that he can’t notice the […]
Finding Happiness in Silence and Darkness
It’s morning, I’ve just opened my eyes. The light is already pouring into the room in full streams, and yet it’s cold. I step into the shower and warm water runs down my hair, warming my shoulders, my chest. The aches my body had already taken as its own are leaving me. It’s amazing to […]
Love in the Shadow of the Modern World
I’m sitting at a table in a restaurant, watching the lake and its quiet beauty. In front of me stretches an idyllic view, but what catches my attention more is the couple at the next table. Both are absorbed in their phones. They have each other, they have time to spend together, yet instead of […]