Je r\u00e1no, pr\u00e1ve som otvoril o\u010di. Svetlo u\u017e pln\u00fdmi d\u00fa\u0161kami prenik\u00e1 do izby, napriek tomu je chladno. Vstupujem do sprchy a tepl\u00e1 voda mi stek\u00e1 po vlasoch, ohrieva ramen\u00e1, hrudn\u00edk. Bolesti, ktor\u00e9 moje telo u\u017e bralo za vlastn\u00e9, ma op\u00fa\u0161\u0165aj\u00fa. Je \u00fa\u017easn\u00e9 c\u00edti\u0165 sa na chv\u00ed\u013eu takto pr\u00edjemne. Pre\u010do v\u0161ak zmizol aj pocit samoty? Ve\u010f tu stoj\u00edm s\u00e1m, zahalen\u00fd len vodou. A predsa c\u00edtim \u0161\u0165astie. Rozmazn\u00e1vanie. Mo\u017eno je na svete ve\u013ea \u0161\u0165astia, len ho nevid\u00edme \u2013 lebo sa st\u00e1le za nie\u010d\u00edm \u017eenieme.<\/p>\n
Za\u017e\u00edvam ho ka\u017ed\u00fd de\u0148, ale a\u017e dnes si ho naplno uvedomujem. Mo\u017eno sta\u010d\u00ed len by\u0165. By\u0165 v pr\u00edtomnosti, rozm\u00fd\u0161\u013ea\u0165, ako sa pote\u0161i\u0165. Ak\u00fd je zmysel \u017eivota? Dlho som ho h\u013eadal. V\u00e4\u010d\u0161inou t\u00e1to ot\u00e1zka kon\u010dila sm\u00fatkom a predstavou partnerky. Dnes nie. Dnes mi voda dala v\u0161etko, \u010do som potreboval. A ja som spokojn\u00fd. Znamen\u00e1 to, \u017ee dok\u00e1\u017eem \u017ei\u0165 \u0161\u0165astne aj s\u00e1m? Mo\u017eno \u00e1no. Aspo\u0148 dnes je moj\u00edm zmyslom \u017eivota moje \u0161\u0165astie. A d\u00fafam, \u017ee to tak ostane nadlho.<\/p>\n
Je skoro september, bude chladno. A pr\u00e1ve v chlade si \u010dlovek uvedom\u00ed, ak\u00e9 vz\u00e1cne je teplo. Te\u0161\u00edm sa na zimu, ktor\u00fa som cel\u00fd \u017eivot nezn\u00e1\u0161al \u2013 preto\u017ee viem, \u017ee bude jednoduch\u00e9 pote\u0161i\u0165 sa. Sprchou ako dnes. Alebo tepl\u00fdm kakaom. Dnes je de\u0148 pre m\u0148a. P\u00f4jdem si da\u0165 k\u00e1vu do hotela, vypo\u010dujem si t\u00fa ich tich\u00fa hudbu a budem si u\u017e\u00edva\u0165, \u010do mi \u017eivot dal.<\/p>\n
\u017divot \u010dasto vn\u00edmame ako \u0161ero a p\u00fdtame sa, pre\u010do v \u0148om nie je viac svetla. Ale mo\u017eno je to tak spr\u00e1vne. Melanch\u00f3lia n\u00e1m d\u00e1va \u0161ancu c\u00edti\u0165 kr\u00e1su, ke\u010f pr\u00edde. V \u0161ere predsa vidno prenika\u0165 slne\u010dn\u00e9 l\u00fa\u010de najlep\u0161ie. Pozn\u00e1te ten pocit, ke\u010f v\u00e1m je zima a cez okno prenik\u00e1 len jeden l\u00fa\u010d? Postav\u00edte sa k nemu \u2013 a c\u00edtite teplo.<\/p>\n
A nie s\u00fa na\u0161i bl\u00edzki ako tie l\u00fa\u010de? U\u017e\u00edvame si ich pr\u00edtomnos\u0165, alebo ju nech\u00e1vame preteka\u0165 pomedzi prsty ako t\u00fato rann\u00fa vodu? \u0160ero je skoro tma. A v tme s\u00fa vidie\u0165 hviezdy. Tak h\u013eadajme svoje hviezdy, nechajme sa ohrieva\u0165 ich l\u00fa\u010dmi. A ka\u017ed\u00fd de\u0148 si doprajme chv\u00ed\u013eu, ke\u010f si dovol\u00edme by\u0165 \u0161\u0165astn\u00ed. Len tak.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Je r\u00e1no, pr\u00e1ve som otvoril o\u010di. Svetlo u\u017e pln\u00fdmi d\u00fa\u0161kami prenik\u00e1 do izby, napriek tomu je chladno. Vstupujem do sprchy a tepl\u00e1 voda mi stek\u00e1 po vlasoch, ohrieva ramen\u00e1, hrudn\u00edk. Bolesti, ktor\u00e9 moje telo u\u017e bralo za vlastn\u00e9, ma op\u00fa\u0161\u0165aj\u00fa. Je \u00fa\u017easn\u00e9 c\u00edti\u0165 sa na chv\u00ed\u013eu takto pr\u00edjemne. Pre\u010do v\u0161ak zmizol aj pocit samoty? Ve\u010f […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":133,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[56],"tags":[72,109,91,79,110],"class_list":["post-179","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uvahy","tag-nalada","tag-peacefulmoment-sk","tag-reality-sk","tag-stastie","tag-sunlight-sk"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/179","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=179"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/179\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":194,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/179\/revisions\/194"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/133"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=179"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=179"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sleboda.art\/sk\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=179"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}